DJ Earworm's Untied State of Pop 2010 is out!

ETA: Which, if you don't know, is a mashup of the Billboard Top 25 of this year. Yup, all 25. XD
Dear gods, what the hell happened to my internet life? I miss this. I was hoping the twitposting would get me back on track, but... Damn. I'm gonna be better at this. I'm gonna post and comment like a real person, for serious.

Whiny tidbit of the day: I have a particular acquaintance. This person is often very judgmental about things they know nothing about, but usually I just ignore it because I don't like to make waves. Also this person hates glitter and rhinestones and sparkly things, and will judge you for wearing or liking them. This time the topic at hand was one I am very familiar with; I've both studied and experienced it, so I spoke up. This person dismissed me and continued to pass judgment on a situation they have not experienced and about which they are not educated or knowledgeable. And they didn't know any of the people involved. That put me at something of a loss, so I changed the subject. Then when I got home, I did my nails like this,* just for spite.

It is my "no, fuck YOU" manicure. As the Lady says, sequins are much more fun than bombs.

Also, this is kinda making me feel better:

Good night, lovies. :)

*Not my pic or nails, got it off fuckyeahnailart

The video for "Love the Way You Lie" is pretty much everything I love in a music video: fire, sex, Dominic Monaghan, relationship violence, trashy!Megan Fox, All-American-Boy!Eminem (standing in the Amber Waves of Grain no less), and Rihanna's gorgeous little sneer.

I don't know if I've talked about it here before, but the year I was 18, I was on the receiving end of a lot of violence, from others, and eventually from myself. Now that I think about it, music videos have articulated what that was like for me more completely and accurately than any other medium. (See Bad Romance.) A collection of images more than anything else, with a plot that's kind of pantomimed, not actually that complicated at all, and a song. Kind of like how I mentioned my experience with violence at the beginning of this paragraph - it's relevant to the topic at hand, and thus worth mentioning, but attempting to elaborate wouldn't be nearly as accurate or... eloquent I guess, as just throwing it out there as a simple fact, something that happened, something that made this particular bit of media relevant to my interests.

Now that I've said that there's no way to elaborate on it, I'm going to elaborate on it. Rihanna's lines in this song are about enjoying the pain a bit, and that's something that I experienced and have always felt guilty about, and then guilty about feeling guilty. When I was being abused (ugh, I hate that word, can anyone else think of a better word? Aside from "victimized?") I was depressed. I attempted suicide multiple times that year. I felt about as worthwhile and beautiful as a piece of used, soggy toilet paper, and yet. The world seemed much more vibrant to me then than it does now. I was so much more creative when I was suffering and maladjusted. I remember having such vivid dreams, writing all the time; poetry and short stories and 15 page free-writes that were so much funnier and sadder and more eloquent than anything I write these days, when I write at all. The beauty of my mom's flowers reduced me to tears at least 4 times that I remember. This was also the year that I learned to associate sex with violence, real violence, not the play of BDSM. That's where the real guilt kicks in because the sex-violence association is a major problem, or at least it causes major problems in our society. I hate that I've become part of that problem. (And it affected my play. That year made me much more of a sub than I was, but it also made me less trustworthy as a sub.) On the other hand, I'm a hedonist and a humanist and I don't think anyone including me should feel guilty for the way they feel. Feeling guilt over kinks and knee-jerk emotional reactions makes me part of yet another problem. But anyway, Rihanna's lines. There's an admission of enjoyment there, but an accusation against the perpetrator at the same time. Everything that happened to me, I let happen to me. I am absolutely certain that I was as much a part of the problem as my abuser. (I NEED ANOTHER WORD.) But I do not believe in blaming the victim at all, not even a little bit. When confronted with this situation as it applies to others, I don't have even the slightest emotional undercurrent of victim-blame. So that's a nice paradox.

I'm gonna end here and hit post before I lose my nerve.

Well. Hi. I didn't mean to take a two week break there. I just... haven't been up to much. Just work. And the beach, which led to - cut for toplessness )

I started taking lessons at Culture Shock. It's not very challenging, but it's just wonderful to be in a drilling class of any kind. God, I missed it. Also in dance news, I plan to spend the next couple weeks perfecting the Bad Romance and Alejandro choreographies so that I can bust them out at Pride, if necessary. XD

I'm going to IMATS with my boss, and I fully anticipate coming back HORRIFICALLY BROKE. Any of my L.A. homies wanna come?

In an effort to avoid another unintentional hiatus, I'm going to attempt to post at least one sentence or link per day for a month. *firm decisive nod*
Belly dance/hip hop fusion has always been one of my favorite things ever, but even if you hate it, you have to admit:

It's a beautiful thing to watch someone give their body over to a song they clearly love.


Mar. 26th, 2010 08:31 pm

Ahem. Does anyone happen to have $65 they're just itching to get rid of? Because this looks like a party and a half, and I think (think) that I just happen to have Saturday off, but I don't really want to go by myself.

When she bites her arm, it undoes me.
For the life of me, I can't find anywhere to purchase The Fabulous Yard Dogs Road Show CD. Does anybody have it and if so would you be willing to share?

I've been agonizing over whether or not to post this. I've improved a lot since the beginning of the semester, but it's still pretty embarassing. You can totally hear how nervous I was every time I sing "away." But on the other hand, my outfit is pretty cute. I look like a nice girl. :P
Holy shit it's [ profile] brynwulf's birthday! Applause, ppl! She's amazing! Happy birthday!

I have spent all day reading fic. Literally ALL DAY so far. This is partially because I was away at Wincon (I like saying it like that, like Wincon is a prestigious institute of some kind. WHICH IT TOTALLY IS.), and Wincon is so awesome that fic-reading gets put on hold while one attends to it. (HEE!) And also I didn't have a laptop with me. Then, the Monday after Wincon, I started my short term classes, and had this weird 7 - Midnight shift @ work. Then Tuesday I had to take a two hour train ride to the San Diego county HR department to take a test that will qualify me for 5 or 6 different clerical positions. Also on Tuesday my mp3 player crashed and came back missing all my vids, playlists, pictures and about 200 tracks. Then Wednesday I had my Class Voice midterm, babysat Abbie, formatted the mp3 player, and have spent every spare moment since rebuilding my music library. And in a couple hours I will go to work so that I can work the midnight shows of Saw V and High School Musical 3. So I figured I deserved a good 6 hours of fic-reading.

The series of events discussed above have also prohibited any kind of Wincon write-up. But I promise it's coming! I have tomorrow off from both school and work, which is pretty much the eighth wonder of my tiny universe, so I will be getting stuff done!


Feb. 1st, 2008 11:57 pm
[ profile] mere_buff_4 commands me to post! And so I post! I am ever her devoted servant.

I am sick. Something is wrong with my foot. Also, I'm kinda freaking out because one of my bosses said she needs to talk to me tomorrow. No matter how well I behave, whenever someone says they need to talk to me, my immediate reaction is 'I didn't do it! Nobody saw me! I was young and foolish! I don't remember anything! The sheep are lying! I blame society!'

Still haven't seen Supernatural or Torchwood. :( My brother put Star Trek on the Netflix queue and has been force-feeding it to me every time I have a spare moment. I still haven't got rid of this cold enough to try my BPAL either. The world is conspiring to keep me from that which my soul loves.

So anyways, have some pieces of wisdom from my professors:

Oh jeez, it's a mac. What the hell I am supposed to do with a mac? Pray? - Prof. upon entering classroom and seeing the provided computer

You're made of the non-metal elements. You're not a robot. You don't go grrrr... *robot impression* ...Well, I mean, you can do that if you want, but you're still not a robot. - Prof.
Aww. *hangs head* - SomeGuy

And here's a funny song. ^-^

ETA: I will be making an icon post soon, I promise! It'll have requests and everything!
BPAL! I has some! I got a bottle of Love's Philosophy, and imps of Whip, Aeval, and Pannychis; plus Himerus, Dee, and The Bow & Crown of Conquest, to try for Sam scents. For frimps I got Robin Goodfellow, Two Five & Seven, Dragon's Claw, and Chuparosa. Even the frimps seem terribly appropriate for me right now. I'm normally not this into Valentine's Day or romance at all, but I've just been a sucker for it lately. There's this couple I work with, and every time I hear GuyHalf talk about GirlHalf, I go all stupid and melty. He's the only non-single male I've ever known who doesn't spend 50-98% of his conversations complaining about his girlfriend. I've never heard him say a word against her. But anyways! I got an extremely bad head cold the day after my lovely BPAL arrived, so I've only gotten to try Love's Philosophy. Thus far my review of it is as follows: NNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNGH. KHNA[O;IWERN. 9WR8HN. NNNNNNNGH. MOAR.

I have a new SONG OF MY LIFE OMG! song. It's by The Parlotones. Please excuse the talking at the beginning, it was hastily clipped out of a podcast, as I cannot seem to find a place to buy the cd.

I want this! I'm all about the voices of inanimate objects, and it's so adorable and proud! It's like, "Look! I changed!" But they don't ship outside the UK, and I couldn't find them anywhere else. Curse my lack of money and British citizenship! I went to my campus store for recycled notebooks instead. *iz a happy, but not ecstatic treehugger*

I'm all caught up on Torchwood!
I have:


Re: SEX!

Nov. 26th, 2007 12:40 pm
Purely for curiosity's sake:

[Poll #1095408]
For serious, the answers I have gotten to this question in RL are fascinating. Bonus points if you upload and link me in comments!

Also, I feel I should mention that the level of gay at my place of work has recently skyrocketed. I have seen more boytouching in the last month than I have ever seen outside of Ecstasies or the like. Mind you, this is not an influx of new hires or anything, these are guys I have worked with for almost two years, just randomly deciding that the best thing to do is grope and kiss each other. I think Santa has determined that I've been a very good girl.

Music Meme

Oct. 7th, 2007 09:41 pm
List seven songs you are into right now, no matter what the genre, whether they have words, or even if they're not any good, but they must be songs you're really enjoying now. Post these instructions in your LiveJournal along with your seven songs. Then tag seven other people to see what they're listening to.

1) The Long Black Veil (Live @ Folsom Prison) by Johnny Cash
My reaction to Johnny Cash's voice is much like other girls' reactions to Johnny Depp's... everything.

2) In My Time of Dying/Sun's Going Down/Black Snake Blues (Live) by Jeff Martin
Bluesy and orgasmic. I have this on my dance practice playlist and I do this sort of bellydance/pentecostal writhing fusion to it. Also a very good Supernatural song right now.

3) Victim of Da Funk (Eagles/Daft Punk Mashup) by DJ John
This is so very fun. ^-^

4) I Wish by Infected Mushroom
[ profile] grimmus passed this onto me, and I love it. I practice my tribal isolations to it. The remix is awesome too.

5) Underground by Tom Waits
The first time I heard this was in Robots. (Copperbottom!) I go crazy for it every Halloween.

6) The Halcyon Days by The Tea Party
This is my Papa Winchester song.

7) Thunderstruck by ACDC
I don't need to explain this, do I? It's ACDC. And it's good for shimmy practice. And my mom uses "ACDC" to mean bisexual, which is cute.

8) Paper Planes by M.I.A.
Eight is a luckier number than seven. And this song is awesome.

9) Big Furry Head by Amon Tobin
Nine is not a luckier number than eight, but I'll risk the lack of superior luckiness to share this song.

I would like to tag the whole internets. This meme has gotten me some extremely badass music in the past.

Also, Law & Order SVU is such shit. My mom was watching it the other night and I was overhearing it, and some girl was missing. Then they found out... DUN DUH DUUUUUUN!! She used the internet like a dirty, dirty whore!! She played some mmo, but they refused to call it a game. They kept referring to "another universe" and how "her predator [had] met her in another universe" and "had sex with her in another universe" and I just wanted to go "Calm. Down. People. It's not really another universe, it's just the internet. Time and space aren't falling apart or anything."

Btw, I wanted the tag on this to say "tv is harvesting your soul and feeding it to more intelligent creatures," but it was too long, dammit.



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