Break out the emo and bring me my angst bucket.

[scarylullabiez]

*cries and cries and cries* Everything in algieland was all happy and I knew something was coming, but these things aren't like violent exciting things, they just suck hard in a manner not unlike RL, and dear gods, I let things get to me too much. Lien knows how I am; I get depressed every year as the sun wanes. I can already tell it's gonna hit me hard this time around.

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[brynneeryn.livejournal.com]

Algie does make me get teary and cry when almost nothing else does, (as well as making me insanely happy) so you are not alone on that! I was completely angst ridden over Boyd's post last night, and then Brandon tonight. Poor guys.

I hope you feel better. Could you have seasonal affective disorder or something like that?

[scary-lullabies.livejournal.com]

I started crying as soon I realized Boyd was gonna have to go live with Tove, and with no Hayden or Jensen to cuddle him after Tove has his way.

The annual winter depression has a religious cop-out attached. (I can get into that if you're curious, but it'd be like, a paragraph of info.) And I'm schizotypal, and that probably doesn't help. It's gotten better as I get older because I know how to handle myself, you know? I know my triggers and such.

[brynneeryn.livejournal.com]

I cried over Boyd last night, and Brandon did me in tonight.

I am curious about your reasons, but I don't want to put you on the spot. I am always curious about mostly everything, but that's just how I am--I'm not trying to be offensive. And that's good that you know what your trigers are. :)

[scary-lullabies.livejournal.com]

*sigh* These muns know just how to play us, don't they? They should go for world domination.


Oh, no, I don't mind telling, I just always hesitate before info-dumping. I'm always afraid I'm coming across like those crazy people that you barely know and you go "Hey, how are you?" and you expect them to say "Fine," but then they end up whining at you for two hours.

Anyways, I'm Wiccan, if you didn't know, and Wicca believes that all life is connected and that almost everything that occurs in nature has a lesson or is a metaphor for a whole other host of otherwise unrelated experiences. We also believe in a God and Goddess who are a divine family and are, to summarize as briefly as possible, constantly destroying and recreating each other (and this is also a metaphor for the human experience). During the winter, the sun goes away or loses strength (the God dies) leaving the moon (the Goddess) alone (and sometimes pregnant, depending on which branch of Wicca we're talking about). Basically it's a very dark and lonely time. Many Wiccans become attuned to this and feel "the pull of the year," so to speak. We're more quiet and solemn around this time and it's all thought of as very natural. What with my schizotypal disorder, I'm not surprised that I interpret this time of year with something closer to full-on depression. And then after the Winter Solstice (the shortest day of the year) the Sun begins to come back (the God is reborn and grows) and my mood picks up and stays blissed out until after Samhain.

Scared yet? :)

[brynneeryn.livejournal.com]

World domination is a definite possibility, lol.

No, not scared, lol, I find that very interesting as I've only done a little bit of reading on Wicca, and don't know much about it, just some general themes about pagan religions.

Do Wiccans have a holiday where they set an extra place at the table for dinner, or did I dream that? I'd love to harass you more by asking questions but I'm falling asleep bc it's 2:34 am here. Eeek, I'm hosting a baby shower tomorrow so I guess I should go to bed.

Lol on the info dump people. I think I would be one of those if I didn't stop myself, so don't ever limit yourself with me! :)

[scary-lullabies.livejournal.com]

Hmm... ElJay ate my reply. Anyways, yes, that's called a Silent Feast. You set out food and drink for your ancestors and those who have died the past year and then sit down and eat with them. It's one way to celebrate Samhain (the Wiccan new year), but it's not a part of all Wiccans' traditions and it's not exclusively Wiccan. I've heard of it being done to celebrate Dia de los Muertos as well.

I'm all up for questions! I love talking about my religion with people who don't immediately ask about the orgies with Satan or the baby-eating.

[epigram.livejournal.com]

::hands you a box of tissues in a cheerily decorated Christmas box with loud, garish lights painted on:: It's half empty. From me sniffling all over the place for the past two days. But I am willing to share.

And the Wicca explanation? Golden. :)

[scary-lullabies.livejournal.com]

*accepts garish tissues*

Teehee! It's fun to actually write it out. What was that one about the Wiccan crisis of faith? Instead of 'What does God want from me? Does He love me? What is my purpose on this earth?' it's 'Dude, I'm a forty-year-old comics nerd sitting around talking to dragon in my head. What the hell is wrong with me?'

[echotiarra.livejournal.com]

Aww:-( I get like that att imes. Sucks, doesn't it?

[modillian.livejournal.com]

Oh honey, I'm in a bit of a mess too. BoydBoydBoydBoyd, and oh Brandon. I feel I should be sorry for Jensen and Jared too, but I can't go there yet. I'm too attached to my two favorite B-boys. *clings*

And I looked at your mood and religious comments, and hearts and hearts to you too. I hope things go smoothly, although it may not be possibly what with life and algie fumbling with the mind.

[lien-the-lost.livejournal.com]

Aw, poor Ara.... at least you know it will be better in a few months... I'm sending you happy thoughts!

[scary-lullabies.livejournal.com]

*snuggles*